I was supposed to go see a client across town. My plan was to go early in the morning but I didn‘ t quite leave the house when I wanted to and found myself dilly-dallying until early afternoon. Suddenly, I found myself hurrying to get out the door. Then I was on the freeway and driving and all was well.
My thoughts were along the lines of I‘ m in control of my life. Yea I got this life is good. I’ll say that I was not fully in the present moment as I was driving. The freeway was packed, and it seemed the day for a lot of car accidents. I must have passed at least three within the short time I was on the freeway. I was driving along at a good clip and more and more cars were joining the flow. I was lost in my thoughts about what I was going to do the rest of the day. Suddenly, I hear a strange noise coming from the front of my car, it gets louder. Then I hear something break and the car makes a lurch to the right.
Remember how much I was in control a moment ago? No longer. With this bang, this control has been taken away from me. Trust me, I‘ m totally in the moment, in the car, and I‘m not thinking about anything else other than trying to survive. I could steer but not as well as I would have liked. I‘m driving up to another fender bender and it‘s right in front of me and I‘m hoping that I can turn my way out of it so I won‘t be a third party in their accident. I‘m able to maneuver just passed it, and I‘m praying just get me out of here. There are lots of bigger vehicles all round me at that moment and I was doing everything that I could to be present within that moment. I‘m able to steer just enough to the next exit and guide my car to the end of that exit.
I get out of the car and grab my cell phone and start making the calls that I needed for assistance. I call my mechanic and tell him that my steering went out of my vehicle and I needed a tow. I called my girlfriend and told her the situation. I did not speak either one of them directly just left messages. I really didn’t have a clue how I was going to get out of this situation. I started to freak out about my life and a little melt down was on the way. I was starting to lose it and feel like I was alone and nobody cared because they just kept passing me by.
While I was thinking I was alone, thinking I was powerless, not knowing what I was going to do I just fell into the incredible Lack attack you know that moment where something bad happens to you and you just start coming up with all these reasons why you suck, your life sucks, its always going to be this bad, I just started to needlessly kick my ass.. remember that meltdown I mentioned earlier there it was..hello darkness my old friend. I was interrupted by people coming off the freeway. Some saw that I was stranded and within minutes, at least five or six drivers stopped to offer assistance. Wow … how was that for a quick turn around? I was amazed to find out that in truth, I was not alone. I was supported. Help was always available. What a feeling … on top of my beating heart as I realized that this situation could have gotten really bad fast. My mechanic friend called back and told me he was on his way. The Highway Patrol came by to offer assistance and get my van out of the way because rush hour was coming. Some time went by and they were ready to call in another tow service and just then my mechanic showed up.
He was able to maneuver in front of my vehicle. As he lowers the flatbed and does his thing to hook me up and begins to drag my van up the slope, he looked me right in the eyes and said, ―Only you! we shared a good laugh. It was true—things just fell into place for me. Which is not to say that my heart wasn‘ t pounding to beat the band and that a couple trickles of sweat worked their way down my spine … that was all part of it, too.
What makes the world we live in so amazing, so precise, and so profound is the synchronicity. Just look at all the pieces that needed to fall into place for me to not only live through it, but to even be able to laugh about it. There are myriad ways that things could have gone so very differently.
As I was exposed to the challenge, the only control I ever had was how I managed my thoughts and feelings. I positively maintained how I felt about the challenge, and chose to act from a place of empowerment rather than one of being a victim. Thus, the situation went very smoothly. I don‘ t know what my mechanic‘s day was like. I don‘t know what he was working on that allowed him the time to come pick me up. Later, my friend told me that something had broken in my front left axle, which broke a tie rod, which tore into my CV joint, and disabled my vehicle. I‘m surprised I can even remember that much, because mechanically inclined I am not. Could the mechanical chain of events have been prevented with a regular vehicle inspection? I don‘t know. I just know that it busted and it stayed together long enough to get me to a safe place, and that‘s good enough for me.
Control was taken away from me and even though I was admittedly scared, even though I felt out of control, even though I didn‘ t have a clue about what was going to happen, I still ended up in a safe place Pant… pant… pant…I was scared man but what was really cool that day was I saw how resourceful I can be. I recognized that everything worked in my favor even though I didn‘ t know how it would, most importantly I‘m still here to tell you that I still experience challenges and I still choose to be happy as I meet them and surpass them. You don’t have to make yourself feel good or feel bad based on the things that are just happening in your life its just life, understand that you give life meaning and some things and people can mean everything or nothing but you are doing all of it.
This feeling of everything is going to work out is what I wish for you my friends.
Have a fresh new look at your self and your life and find the good in all of it. Know that you have control over how you choose to feel at all times. Trust the fact that you can choose from a place of empowerment rather than dis-empowerment.
In fact if you were to just focus on controlling how you choose to feel in every moment (don’t worry you won’t.) you would understand more of where you are coming from by asking more present moment questions like why am I choosing to feel this way? Is this feeling true? If it is a dis empowered feeling you can ask why am I using this experience as a reason to feel bad? From there you will uncover the belief system that you have that some thing should be a certain way so that you can choose to feel good. Bam uncovered the limiting experience and from that moment you can choose to either continue with that belief if it serves you or change it all together and create yourself anew. Allow yourself this gift now don’t be alarmed but when you choose to live by a new story the old story has to die and that can be scary as hell and you will come up with all sorts of lies to tell yourself to stay in your story of limitation. Let your self here the lie say yea whatever I’m good and allow it to move on and let yourself write and live you new story as you see fit.
Everything you want in life will come down to the feelings you generate. And you can choose to feel good as much as you want no matter what’s going on. It’s about living fully and being in touch with who you are. Here is to you and more grand adventures in knowing how great you are and how great life can be.